Panic Attacks

 Human behavior is dictated by patterns developed by the tactics in our bag of survival instincts (and modeled behaviors) which seem to provide something that works to alleviate our fragilities and insecurities such as fear, pain, worries, etc. Survival instincts only occur due to a fear of pain and death which are the result of inhibited soul life, that is, a loss of connection and/or contact with our spiritual nature and spiritual histories. 

The behavior that we have come to call "a panic attack" seems to be the result of a need to A) get perceived "needs" for sympathy or attention, B) to get the conscious mind or "ego" to take a break or shut down so that it can have a chance to reset, to reconnect with the realities of life and the laws of existence. I say this having witnessed and heard stories of said events enough to have noticed a pattern: that they usually happen in close proximity to "loved ones" or people who might understand them; that they rarely happen in the locus of strangers; that they often lead to a peaceful, embarrassing and/or humbling state of re-attachment to the patterns that bring one healing and reduced pain and anxiety. Why we let perceptions of anxiety rise to such levels as to require such extreme actions is something that any person who has learned "panic attacks" as a successful coping mechanism can learn to determine for themselves. My point is that it takes the learning of self-care skills and habits, self-responsibility, and the meeting and regulation of addictions and other deleterious habits to disarm and abandon such "extreme" and infantile habits. (I call them infantile because they are quite like the tantrums, meltdowns, and/or "fits" that we labeled such behaviors in children--which feeds my theory of picking up and/or trying out behaviors we've had modeled to us that seem to work for the role models in our lives.)

    

Human Singularities

 A singularity is what scientists refer to when speaking about that which we call "black holes." A human singularity is what I'm referring to as a human black hole, or what street vernacular of the 1990s developed as an energy vampire: someone who sucks all of the joy, light, and energy out of the surroundings of the immediate space that they happen to occupy. They are takers, self-deluded about their own greatness, their own intelligence, their own importance; they are not only the true centers of their own universes but all that exists around them they see as theirs: their food, their sustenance, their fodder, theirs to do what they want with. An element of the potential of homo sapiens sapiens has been nurtured to allow it to often see themselves as the destined master of all it purveys, as "God's gift" to the universe. This what Daniel Quinn referred to when he coined the terms "taker" in his transformative book, Ishmael.

The rise of the phenomenon known as "narcissism" seems a natural progression to have arisen out of the "me-generation" mentality that the captains of capitalism have pushed upon us--just as the "borderline nation" of sociopathic behavior is a natural (and desired) product (objective) of narcissistic resistance to to the unrelenting oppression of systematic brainwashing (acculturation). It should come as no surprise that the effect of insidious fear-mongered would produce a population of paranoid, neurotic isolationists--both individually and collectively--of which narcissism should only be recognized as the natural expression of one of the most extreme versions of "me-generation" individualism: human singularity spun out of control. 

Great Movies Void of Guns, Killing, Bullying, Violence, and Horror

Here is a list of films in which Joy, Beauty, Love, Altruism, Selflessness, and the Transcendence of the Human Spirit reign supreme:

Off the Map

Joyeux Noël

The Danish Girl

Enchanted April

Love, Actually

The Bill Murray Stories: Life Lessons Learned from a Mythical Man

About Time

Harold and Maude

Being There

My Neighbor Totoro

Jésus de Montréal

Local Hero

Roman Holiday

A Home at the End of the World

The Apartment

Meet Joe Black

In America

La cage aux folles

This Is Spinal Tap

Sleeper

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly

Dad

Amélie

Mostly Martha

The American President

Michael

Finding Neverland

The Coca-Cola Kid

Rikki & Pete

Florence Foster Jenkins

Babe

The Straight Story

Mrs. Harris Goes to Washington

Cinema Paradiso

A Room with a View

What about Bob?

Conclave

Kiki's Delivery Service

Past Lives

Lost in Translation

Lady Bird (?)

Claendar Girls

Cool Runnings

Stop Making Sense

Arthur the King

When Harry Met Sally

Definitely, Maybe

About Time

The Big Year

5 to 7

Adoration

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Roger Woolger

Roger Woolger was the second author authority on past lives and past life therapy that I discovered. His book Other Lives, Other Selves came along in my life at a perfect time (in 1983) as I was spiritually very hungry, had a lot of time on my hand, and was still too immature and ignorant to comprehend/understand Carl Jung. As a matter of fact, Other Lives, Other Selves was quite possibly my introduction into the world of Jungian thought as I remember how Roger was quite open about discussing the possibility that 'past life information' was quite possibly information that was accessed and available to us through a collective consciousness rather than as independent stories available exclusively to the individuals who experienced them.
     Recent excursions into Roger's world have lead me into two particularly fine thought-provoking ideas. One comes from a video that Roger made very near to the end of his life with regards to whether or not he believed that past lives were truly a phenomenon exclusive to individual 'souls,' that is, whether or not the individual soul exists. His explanation used an anecdote from Tibetan Buddhist monk Chunguyu Rinphche. When asked during a public Q & A how Tibetan Buddhists could adhere to a doctrine or belief in reincarnation and bardo when they do not believe in the concept or existence of "souls" the monk responded that they believed that the information that lives on, that seeks new vessels for life experience, are "our neuroses" that is, the stuck, unfinished, untransmuted energies of our lives. Were we to process and transform all of our energy into perfect, unfettered flow, we would be done: we would be ego-less and our energy would be free to flow into and dissipate within as it merges with the Unified Field of the great Universal Life Force.
     The second bit of Roger wisdom/insight that causes me food for thought has to do with Roger's look at the viability of any and all information accessible through the physical bodymind's link to memory or fantasy as equally relevant and helpful in processing and clearing stuck energy. I liken this to Neils Bohr's and Albert Einstein's valuation of imagination as a key element of creativity, creation, and a fuller human life. Thus, aspects of the human experience such as childhood, memory, imagination, fantasy, story, dream, intuition, artistic manifestation, even thought patterns can offer insights into oneself that can help one see oneself and his/her patterns--especially his/her stuck places and their origins. Creative expression (which, one could argue, encapsulates all human expression) is a means to both calcification and eradication of our patterns. Though it is always our choice whether or not we want to "like" or "dislike" our own patterns, assessment and expression would seem to give us the means to change (a process that some might call "grow").

Everything Is Metaphor: The Soul and the Soul Plan

The entity that we in the West have become comfortable referring to as the "soul" is rather nebulous in its definition and coverage. For the purposes of the information I am trying to disseminate, the soul is given a separate assignment than that of the spiritual entity existent in the contextual field that sits "behind" (or in-between or within) the "reality" we call the Earth-based human experience. This entity of individual identity existent in the Spirit worlds we choose to call the "Monad" for the sake of honoring its presence as evidence of the voluntarily individuated aspect of the Universal Mind (God) that has made the sacrifice of entering the contextual fields (games) associated with "Creation." (This process of individuation is considered a sacrifice for two main reasons. One is the of allowing one to undergo the sheathing of the veils of Ignorance when one commits to playing within the rules and laws of the Illusions--especially the Illusion of Separation [i.e. separation from God--a feat and fact that is and can never be true]. The other is the sacrifice of "making sacred" all that is undergoing the perspective shift from that of Universal Oneness to those of separation and independence.) While the thought of the "soul" as a field or force of energy or consciousness that commits to and embodies (or animates or ensouls) a human being is not far off, we like to use the term "Causal Body" to give this intermediary repository of information (the house of "The Plan" of hopes and goals that the Monad and its team of other collaborating Monads have come up with for the newly incarnating vehicle of Earthly interaction). The Causal Body is the filtration point between the Ego and the Monad, the site/vehicle through which all information is passed in a two-way channel, while also existing as the constant reminder of the Plan that your Monad had created for you for this human incarnation.

I mentioned the constant and nurturing "reminder-beacon" pulsing from the Causal Body into the Ego/bodymind and cellular and even subatomic components of your host human's bioenergy field, but did not mention the fact that the din of the every day, every moment dross of "chattering" information bombarding the Ego can drown out the gentle hum of the Plan's reminder. And yet, in those quiet moments, in the sleep, meditative, and/or daydream events and experiences that might somehow sneak by the din of choatic noise, the ever-present and ever-pulsing beacon has the chance to be detected, to spike some curiosity, to perhaps even be heard. This is the beacon's purpose: to always be there to remind the busy and self-obsessed Ego that there was a Higher Purpose programmed into the being--into the contractual commitment your Monad made when it invested a chunk of its energy into your human existence. Many humans fail to ever realize any of the Monad's goals it had predetermined before your birth; some Monads get to experience the address and realization of several of the hopes or goals registered in The Plan. One of the problems the current community of Monads using the Earth School for its experiential learning and "testing" lies in the deep and complex levels and variables of interactive and cumulative emotional, mental, and physical "muck" one can get mired into in the current Homo sapiens sapiens model of the human hosts made available for use. The devices of delusion and deprivation are so deep, and so thick and complex, that the majority of current users (the eight billion Monads currently invested in the Earth School experience) are either too overwhelmed or just plain ill-equipped to be able to recognize any spiritual presence much less spiritual perspective from within the tools available to their human host. Addiction, war and depravity, hierarchy, religious, nationalistic, and technological indoctrination, environmental causes of disease and congenital syndromes and issues, the mental and psychological stresses of having to deal with the latest traps and convections presented by the Illusions of Need, Separation (Disunity), Failure, Insufficiency, Requirement, Condemnation, Conditionality, Superiority, and Ignorance. 

Everything Is Metaphor: The Mental Body

Most humans reading this will have trouble untangling a Mental Body from an emotional one as we are pretty well conditioned to lump the two together in the category we call "psychology." However, there is an intellectual domain in which thoughts, beliefs, values, and systems of these are created and destroyed, replaced over time by way of incoming information that, when processed, becomes more favored or favorable to the individual's current perception and interpretation of their circumstances. This intellectual domain is part of what can be called the "Mental Body" and, when looked at from the higher, more spiritually-reflective aspects of the individual, the "Manasic Body" (or "sheath"). All thoughts, dreams, imaginings, logical conclusions, and not-so-logical meanderings of the individual mind take place through the filters of the Mental Body, Causal Body, and Manasic Body. Any and every thought, belief, value, memory, or imagining is the reflection of something your Monad has either planned for your Earth-based human experience (in order to experience growth toward, and expansion of, Spiritual Self-Awareness) or has attracted to you (both consciously and unconsciously) in order to prompt or provoke heightened vigilance in order to lead you toward more opportunities for reflection and, (hopefully), expanded consciousness. When one does not give the appropriate attention and deep reflection to events, thoughts, dreams, and coincidences that keep occurring and recurring in your life, then the Causal Body will trigger a less-than-healthy response: a "spilling over" of the unattended issue into the emotional and/or physical aspects of being a human being. These are the occasions in which one will eventually have to pay attention to the issue(s) or else suffer discord, pain, disease, and, possibly, death (of the host physical body).
     The aspect of the above revelation that involves giving attention (and credit) to dreams and imagination (symbolism and creativity) as well as likes and dislikes, may seem far-fetched or hokey to the properly conditioned (brainwashed), socialized, and indoctrinated human, but this more holistic perspective of the human experience takes into account information that occupies, for some, somewhere between 10 and 40 percent of one's conscious awareness. There are whole approaches to psychology and medicine that involve giving very serious attention to these matters: approaches that have been far more prevalent and rehearsed for far longer than our own sciences of "psychology" and allopathic medicine. In fact, there are cultures and even sciences that spend far more time paying attention to, sharing, and discussing dreams, imaginings, symbolism, and (changing) individual preferences than our own mainstream society. Noted Swiss psychologist Carl Jung spent a lifetime collecting and practicing the treatment of the human psyche through interpretation (and repeated revisitation for further (re-)interpretation) of significant, often repetitive, highly- (emotionally)-charged events, visions, and dreams.
     The practice of shamanism was developed, used, and valued as an important health tool in almost all societies over the past 20,000 years. Even art, oral tradition of storytelling, "history" (and mythology and its politicized offspring, religion), and sophisticated systems of astronomy and astrology were developed and used for applications of individual and group "health and healing." All of these numinous human creations find their strength and regulation through the mental bodies of the human form. Every thought, idea, interpretation, belief, value, dream, vision, and preference has its role as a reflection of (a metaphor for) an area or issue whose attention would serve you in your task of trying to unveil the layers of Ignorance that you have immersed yourselves into (through culture, society, family, media, and Ego construction) in order to have some chance at "returning" to Spiritual awareness, Self-awareness, Self-actualization, and even Self-Realization (which would be the reunification of Ego perspective with that of Spiritual or Monadic perspective--though true and ultimate Self-Realization would entail full and ever-lasting reunion with the Oneness consciousness of The All, the Great Cosmic Creator).

Everything Is Metaphor: The Ego/Personality

The Ego is the perspective that identifies with the human bodymind. So long as we remain convinced first and foremost that our surroundings, body, senses, feelings, thoughts, and beliefs are "real" and are what define us, then we are under the dominant leadership of the Ego. With gradual and increasing awareness of (and identification with) our non-human qualities, we begin to loosen the grip of control that Ego likes to have over our world- and self-definitions.

     The Personality is the artificial, temporary, and constantly-morphing (and often multi-dimensional and selectively interchangeable) construct of that which we present to the world (and to ourselves). The Ego and its personae and personalities represent tools we can--and do--use for the negotiation of our way throughout the matrix of the four-dimensional Earth School environment.

     The Ego is available as a survival tool so long as we believe that the Earth and the human bodymind that we are using to travel throughout the Earth School experience is "real": so long as we give our power (and trust) to the perceptions of our senses, feelings, and thoughts. But the Soul (or, more accurately, the Causal Body) is programmed to send a constantly pulsing beacon, or signal, to the Ego-driven bodymind, a signal whose purpose is to provide a constant and unwavering reminder that there is more: that there are other, different, more-expanded perspectives from which we can see, experience, and learn from our Earth-based human experience. Intuition, empathy, intellectual curiosity, dream, imagination, coincidence, inspiration, even preferences can offer us glimpses of these "bigger" awarenesses, these "alternate" perspectives. Intuition, empathy, curiosity, dreams, imagination, awareness of coincidences, unexpected inspirations and/or preferences are not the friends of the Ego and its stable of "reality"-dependent personalities. Intuition, empathy, curiosity, dreams, imagination, awareness of coincidences, unexpected inspirations and/or preferences are disruptors: provocateurs that cause the Ego to consider things outside its comfortable box of control. While the Ego is flexible and adaptive to new "expansive" information, it is not as comfortable with, or accommodating of, sudden and "large" disruptors--and definitely less so the longer it has been allowed to reign over the human bodymind with its own beliefs, values, and personalities. Once the Ego has been allowed to get set in its ways, it becomes very difficult to open its mind much less unseat it.

     In an interesting little aside: when the Ego/Personality is misaligned--or in outright conflict--with the Soul/Causal Body (Spirit's "Plan" and goals for our Earth School experience), there can result the phenomenon known as the "headache." Getting the Ego/Personality in line with one's spiritual objectives can effect the disappearance of the discomfort of the headache--even reverse the pattern created that causes the headaches. It is here important to remember that when a symptom of pain or discomfort reveals itself in the physical body, that is the Soul/Causal Bodies "last ditch" effort to gain the Ego's attention in order to (finally) deal with a disharmonizing or imbalancing issue or pattern within your core being. Giving the proper attention to resolve the issue (usually founded in some sort of immature or mistaken perception, (ignorance) or in a rather severe attachment to one [or several] of the Grand Illusions of Cosmic Creation) the physical, emotional, or mental "crisis" can be reversed. However, being a "last ditch" method to raise awareness and garner attention, the symptoms of dis-ease can make full functioning of the physical vehicle that we are using for our Earth-based experience rather uncomfortable, sometimes untenable (which may lead to the demise and eventual uninhabitability of the host vehicle).