Everything Is You

Everything is you. Isn't it obvious? I mean, how could anything other than this be true. Everything we perceive--both consciously and unconsciously--is received and processed through our human neural network. Ingested and digested. Just like food. We sense it and it becomes ours to use. (Or not).
     Everything "outside" of our sensory perception is "there" for our information and use. And yet, by noticing it, by bringing it into our awareness, we are bringing it into our own being, into our consciousness. Even our body will involuntarily react, adjust itself, in accordance to how it thinks we need to ready ourselves for action and/or interaction. Likewise, everything "within"--every thought, feeling, impression, intuition, memory, dream, image or inspiration that seems to come from somewhere "inside" us--is equally present--is drawn to us (one might say, "co-created" by us) for our information and use. With all of this in mind, how could anything (here tying into the word "everything") not be for us, a part of us, and, therefore, us?
 
A common phrase that is often heard from ancient religious texts is, "I AM THAT." I believe this phrase is saying basically the same thing as "everything is you." I am that. Everything is you. The two statements differ only in perspective. "I am that" comes from a center that is our singularly, seemingly independent, personal viewing point, allowing the beam of our "flashlight of attention" to fall lovingly and inclusively onto anything and everything that it might "illuminate." "Everything is you" begins with every single possibility within Creation (past, present or future; here, there and everywhere) and bundles them up into a package that is singular:  that is, "you."
     To test my assertion, let's try an exercise. Think of anything--any thought, any memory, any fleeting image or idea, any sensory or emotional feeling--and observe:  Your attention to that "thing" brings it into the total package that makes up what we call "you." By noticing that thing, you have ingested it--you have "swallowed" it into your neural network, into your human computer for storage, comparison, processing, categorization, and recall. The information that you noticed is now yours and, therefore, a part of "you."
     Hypnosis and psychology have proven that even the things that we do not think that we notice, that we do not think that we have control over, that we take for granted because they seem automatic or because they seem to be in the background and periphery and, therefore, unimportant, these things too have been ingested, have been categorized, and can be recalled and manipulated. The world that the human 'supercomputer'--that we helped choose and design--comes in contact with--external and internal--is a tool for our Soul's information gathering. Or, rather, the human bodymind that we chose to drive for a while is our Soul's learning tool. The Soul is using the human vehicle as a collector and filter of information and experiences. The Soul then uses this information to test itself against its goals along an evolutionary path that eventually leads back to its full re-realization of our Divine Origins--that is, to its full reacquaintance with the fact that We are all everything and that we are all One. Everything is you!
     I can't help but look at a thing, feel a sensation in my body, taste a taste in my mouth, remember a memory from a near or distant past, think up an idea for a sentence or a word to share in conversation, without remembering that that thing, that sensation, that thing I'm tasting, that image in my mind, that word I'm thinking of using, that person I'm in conversation with, are all a part of me--are all present and available to me for my use, for my growth, for my lessons, for my choices, for my participation in the Illusions of Creation, for my play in the Cosmic Game of Cause and Effect. It is such a liberating, joyous realization when these reminding rememberings occur. Such a help in the process of learning detachment from outcomes and expectations.

Many of us have become entranced with the belief that you are your body and its senses, that you are your emotions and feelings, that you are your thoughts and beliefs. We identify with these features as if this is the absolute truth, an unassailable reality. And yet what is it, do you think, that animates--that give energy, awareness, and consciousness--to these bodies, these emotions, your thoughts? Is it electricity? Chemistry? Higgs bosons? I profess to you that none of these would or could exist without a Higher Consciousness, without spiritual backing, without your soul.
     A soul? What, then, would you say is a soul? What is 'spirit?'
     Spirit is the animating force of humans, animals, plants, and, some might argue, all matter. You have an individuated spiritual being who has invested energy or 'ensouled' your human body mind. This spiritual being chose your particular bodymind in this particular time and within this particular culture for very specific reasons: that these conditions offer the best opportunity for certain lesson-bearing experiences to unfold. The experiences you planned to attract to your human vehicle during this journey through the Earth School are most likely to occur through the particular vehicle (human body) and matrix (four-dimensional emotion-based) in which you find yourself.
     Your spiritual body has ensouled the bodymind you currently occupy with very defined goals in mind. You have also come onto the planet with 'contracts' between you and other souls with whom you planned to interact in order to serve one another's learning desires. The human form you chose comes with certain conditions and rules as does the Earth Plane on which it travels.
     As the spirit ensouls the human form it finds itself 'veiled' from certain spiritual information as a condition to help one remain committed to the often overwhelming and certainly challenging rules and limitation that come with the human Earth experience. Were we to arrive in the human host with full spiritual awareness we might find ourselves unwittingly using our Higher Creativity to perform acts that don't really conform to or honor and respect the conditions we've all co-created for the precise kinds of experiential learning that we desire.
     The freshly humanified soul is, as you might imagine, quite unused to and frustrated by the extremely confining and limited capabilities of its new human form. This is why there is the rather polarized infancy and childhood stage of human development, to allow the soul time to get used to the confines and limitations of the human body and Earth Plane.

   You have a body, you have emotions and you have a brain but you are more than your senses, feelings, and thoughts.

Another exercise that is often useful in helping people begin to glimpse the fact that their body is but a tool--that it is a vehicle that we are using but not forever attached to--involves a concept called "bilocation." Bilocation describes the phenomenon of being in one place while the mind is in a totally different place. That "other" place could be memory, dream, projection, or even that object or idea "outside" you that is attracting all of your conscious attention. "Losing yourself" in a book or a film or watching a child on the playground are other examples of bilocality. It is when our attention is so focused "outside" of your own body that you could, in fact, "forget" that you have a body, you could be so totally disconnected from your body that, if you think about it, you could, in fact, be using any body, any viewing point other than your own body.
     Think of driving a car. You drive an hour or two to a certain destination and somewhere along the way we get so focused on our thoughts or on a story we're listening to or the memories that are conjured up by a particular song that we are hearing that when we "wake up" to our immediate surroundings--to the task of driving our car--we are mystified by the fact that we have gotten "here"--to point B--with no memory of the miles we have just driven. We all have done this. This is bilocality:  mentally being in a place different from that of our body yet all at the same time.
     Bilocality is a phenomenon that scientists have recognized for some time. Albert Einstein on his death bed even admitted that he had no scientific explanation for this phenomenon. And yet it was a phenomenon that he fully acknowledged and accepted. By closing your eyes and giving any thought, memory, goal or plan your fullest attention you are in fact bilocating--you are proving that the mind is not confined to--is, in fact, bigger than--the body that supposedly houses it. To me, this phenomenon is proof that the body is not really a house or container for the mind, it is just a vehicle for it; the Mind is using the body of its human host for its view. It is using your body and its senses as a specific viewing point, just as you might use a car or a computer, for the filtration and gathering of information.

Larry Dossey, M.D., has spent the better part of his medical career championing the concept that mind is something beyond the body, that the mind plays a major part in health and healing. In the 1980s Dr. Dossey came up with the term "nonlocal mind" to describe his belief that mind is unconfined to the brain and body, that mind is spread infinitely throughout space and time. He has dedicated his time since then to finding and leading scientific research to support his theories and beliefs as well as expanding upon and explaining better the "nonlocal mind" concept.
     The nonlocal mind is not confined to nor is it defined by the body that it is using. It may be tethered to that body but the string of its tether is infinite in its elasticity and is very easily broken--which merely sets mind free to find another host, another viewing point, another anchoring point. Or not. Set free among the unified field of the One Mind, the nonlocal mind is like the water that once made up the wave--it is exhilarated by its contact with and view of alternate information coming from this other viewpoint of its wave crest--but then, after a brief time, it descends back into the ocean where it is comfortably re-merged within the unified wholeness of its foundational substance, the water.
     The minds of all creatures on this planet, including humans, do not have borders, they are neither discrete nor private. Instead, we are all fundamentally united. This statement supports my original premise: everything is you. My mind is using this Drew Fisher body and neural network for information and experience gathering but it could just as easily use any other body or reference point for said task. As explained in podcast Episode 38, in the Akashic Library it does exactly this. The Self-identifying Spiritual Entity I call the Monad uses the "records" in the Akashic Library to access an infinite variety of reference points from which to observe, gather, react, act or interact as it wills.
     If you substitute the word "soul" or "Monad" for the word "mind" in the above paragraphs you get the full gist of my meaning--the reason for my doing these podcasts/blogposts. We souls/Monads/ "minds" are using these human bodies with their wonderful senses, the rich emotional field with its immense variety of feelings and conundra, these wonderfully elastic brains, all for the purpose of experience. And we do! We experience so many things at so many levels. But remember:  The human vehicle is a bridge for the two-way flow of information. Information--Beauty, Truth, Joy and Love--can be found and gathered by the Monadic oversoul through the human vehicle, but it can also be given. As the Monad decides to participate in the Earth School experience it is not its intention to only take from its experiences, it hopes to figure out how to give something in return for its use. Therefore, think of yourselves as a bearer, a deliverer, of Truth, Beauty, Joy and Love. In your infinite wisdom, in your natural state, from within the matrix of your Original Substance--which is the Great Ocean of Cosmic Consciousness, you are Truth, Beauty, Joy and Love. So, express yourself!--by expressing your Self! Express your Truth, your Beauty, your Joy, and your Love!

The Elusive Higgs Boson "God" Particle and the Illusory Space-Time Continuum

I find science fascinating. Especially physics. I am awestruck by the relentless way science has helped expand our human comprehension of our physical/material world, pushing the boundaries of understanding to deeper levels--to levels pushing up against, even into, the magical, the mystical, the unbelievable. Then, using a spirits-in-the-material-world perspective, authors like Fritjof Capra, Gary Zukov, Deepak Chopra, and Stephen Wolinsky--as well as a plethora of science-fiction/fantasy writers--have been able to bring science over to the imaginative-intuitive side of human understanding, exploring the fascinating hypotheticals spawned by specific nuances of scientific theory. And now, after watching Particle Fever, the 2013 documentary film about all the excitement generated by the opening of the CERN "large hadron particle collider" in Geneva, Switzerland, it seems to me that the verification of the existence of the so-called "God particle" has presented humanity with another confounding, humbling confrontation with "reality."
     The scientific findings coming from CERN since 2009 have confounded the scientific community. Verification of the existence of the Higgs boson, or "God particle," was publicly announced to great fanfare worldwide on July 4, 2012. A hiccup occurred, however, when the long-sought-after subatomic particle showed up in a "place,"or, with numbers, that neither of the two dominant factions within the scientific community had predicted.
     For those of you who haven't heard, the Higgs boson is a subatomic particle named after the physicist Peter Higgs who, in 1964, first conceived of this centrally binding particle. Until the CERN hadron particle collider finally came on line in 2009, this boson had only existed in theory. Higgs and the scientific community had accepted it as the foundational element of our Universe for almost 50 years and yet they had received no verifiable proof of its actual existence until now! The Higgs boson is believed to be the proof necessary that a Field exists in which objects can coexist in symmetries, with mass, while they might, in fact, be massless. (Try that one for a mind-twisting Zen koan!)
     At CERN, the "Supersymmetry" camp was hoping that the mass of the Higgs boson particle, when
found, would be at 115 GEVc2 in order to mathematically confirm their proofs and theory that a single universe exists with perfectly unbroken supersymmetry in which pairs of "super partners" exist in perfect balance. This would help science explain the presence of "dark matter" and "anti-matter" as well as the mysterious "cosmological constant."
     The "Multiverse" camp, which believes that our universe is but one of an infinite number of universes randomly and chaotically ordered, needed the CERN hadron particle collider to come up with a mass of about 140 GeVc2 in order to support its theory. The results coming from months of CERN data gathering was made public on July 4, 2012. The announcement confirmed the existence of the heretofore theoretical particle, but the mass of the Higgs boson was found to be around 125 to 127 GeV--not 115 or 140. Almost halfway between!
     I believe that the reason the Higgs boson particle fit neither of physics' two prevailing theories is because the Divine Cosmic Consciousness (or "God," if you must) wants to remind us that She/He/We can turn 'it,' or anything, off or on, at any time we wish--that we can turn in any direction that we choose--at each and every moment. Our most esteemed cerbralists are being reminded that there is infinite choice, infinite variety, infinite surprise, infinite possibilities, that there is no right or wrong, no better or worse, there is nothing but information and stories--all the information and stories we can dream up.
     As I see it, the findings at the Large Haldron Collider actually offer olive branches to both camps--just as the photon offered a bridge of compromise between particle and wave theorists, as the neutron offered a bridge to help explain discrepancies of mass in the atom, as The Standard Model offered an unifying bridge between General Relativity and Quantum Field Theory, as David Bohm's implicate order offers a bridge of understanding within the field of consciousness, as non-duality offers a bridge between the absolute and the relative, as the Antahkarana (often portrayed as the "Third Eye") offers a bridge between the illusory world of the physical/material and the Reality and Truth of the Spirit World. What is important here is that both sides have been given the exact same treatment:  Both sides can be "right" and, for humility sake, both sides must admit that they were "wrong"--or at least ignorant of all of the facts. It's just the nature of learning and growth: we learn really well from our "mistakes;" knowledge is constantly replacing ignorance. And yet, it's all just information; stories to placate our incessant questions and curiosities.
     The list of stories we humans keep devising and revising in order to try to make logical sense of our world amazes me. Heliocentricity, Pluto, the moons for Neptune, E=MC2, atoms and quanta, Schrodinger's cat, mass and probability, spin and charm, leptons and muons, subjective versus objective, matter and anti-matter--both the dark and light kinds, universes and multiverses--and I could go on and on. And then to remember that it's all made up--that the illusions of our so-called reality were all fabricated by us in the Spirit World. From within the Formless we created Form; from our Imagination we brought forth Creation. And all for our own use! For individuated Spirits to explore and experiment with.
      I also find it interesting that humans have even created scientific systems and verifiable "facts" in order to try to help make certain phenomenon of the Spirit World comprehensible to our limited intellects. How insecure the human Ego consciousness is that we have to try to explain everything, that nothing can be taken on faith, that we spend so much time trying to prove, validate or find evidence to support abstracts like personal beliefs, values, and theories instead of living in the moment, taking advantage of the full potential of the amazing tools for experience that we have at our disposal (like our bodies, our surroundings, our beautiful planet). But then again, maybe our scientists and philosophers are just scaled-down reflections of our most imaginative Creator selves.

     Though we Spirits live in and use space and time as a matrix for the exploration of The Self,
the Spirit World is not invested in the Illusions of Space and Time--at least, not in the same way that we humans are. Spirits do not need any of the Illusions. But we use them.
    It is in the denser dimensional realms that Spiritual Beings may use the illusions of Space and Time for their growth and amusement. But then, again, they may not. There are other "reality" "playgrounds" or "schools" that do not use the Illusions of Space and Time--that work outside of the Illusions of Space and Time.
     Once Monads are divested of the forms/bodies/vehicles they have used for their adventures, the Space-Time illusions are disposable. All of the information gained in these illusory forms of dense matter and emotional chaos are instantaneously accessible--they can be retrieved at any instant for review, revisitation, or even re-entry. And yet, none of it "sticks" with the Monad's Higher Consciousness--none of it is necessary for self-concept or self-identification. It is, after all, just information.
     All of the information gathered from experiences within the Duality Matrix is stored in a library-like form with instantaneous access for reference. This 'library' is called The Akashic Records. Within the Akashic Records one has the option of not only reviewing stories or "films" of lives of ones' self but also "stepping inside" a preserved record, story or "film." The record or file that you choose to view or step into can be one of your own or even someone else's. There you can join the actors "on stage," and even add your own input to the story's unfolding to wee where that choice might lead one.
     The "reworking" of a scene from one's own personal "history" (or from someone else's personal history) is an optional way of learning available in the Spirit World. Imagine the expansive lessons of empathy and perspective one could learn by stepping "into" the bodymind of your spouse, your parents, your children, an adversary, or an historical figure--even if only for one scene in that person's lifetime! Or the perspective on your own actions you might encounter while in the bodymind vehicle of one of your Earth mates! This and so much more is all possible from within the archives of the Akashic Library.
     While some souls naturally choose to use the Akashic Records for the study and review of their own individual "history," others use them to study a broad section of other forms and experiences. Sometimes these souls are doing preparation work for other incarnations which might use other times or other settings or dimensions for their experiential matrix. Sometimes they are in preparation for other Soul work, like that of spirit guide, or in one of the spiritual health professions, such as, midwifery, nursing, counselling, or healer. Some may be training to help build or construct new life forms to serve as alternative hosts for soul experiences. Some may be training to help build new worlds, new stars, new solar systems, galaxies, or even universes. Some may be training to serve as nurse, midwife, guide, counsellor or healer for celestial beings. Whatever the reason, an infinite amount of infinitely expanding information is available within the Akashic Records.
     With all of these learning and awareness informations, exercises, and experiences are available within the Akashic Records, I sometimes wonder why we ever choose to leave them. Or maybe the Akashic Records is, in fact, a metaphor for the infinity of learning opportunities and choices that are available to souls.
     I wonder if that insatiable urge to explore the infinite possibilities of Imagination--which is the very same urge that got us started on this experiment called Dualistic Creation--if that urge is what is being filtered down into our human brains--especially into the minds of scientists with their insatiable curiosity. Or, on a more concrete level, I wonder if the agèd Peter Higgs is as insatiably curious and imaginatively creative now as his twenty-something version was in 1964?

Was your human life a choice?

Question:  Is your present human life the result of your own choosing and planning?

Many people reading this blog or talking with me question my premise of whether or not we have chosen human life much less chosen the circumstances and parameters within which we find ourselves in our current human lives (like gender, family, country, historical time, etc.) Long ago I was one of you. I, too, wallowed in the heavy tar pits of conflict, doubt, fear and helplessness. I, too, had been brainwashed by the constant forces of acculturation, education, and media bombardment. But things changed. I "awakened" to my free and independent self. I began to hear a voice that was coming from within me--a voice that told me that I had choices, that I didn't have to listen to the constant barrage coming from outside me that were telling me what I "had" to do and what I "should or shouldn't" do. I chose to listen to that voice, to explore the information that it revealed, and I found that that information felt better. It made more sense to me. It felt more hopeful, more real, more truthful. The result of that long road of exploration, of allowing intuition to flow, of trying to satisfy my insatiable curiosity is this! This blog! My unshakable spirituality.
     Spirituality. The recognition of and connection to a spiritual element of life. The acknowledgment that while I have a body, I am much more than my physical senses; while I have emotions, I am much more than my feelings; while I have thoughts, I am much more than my intellect. I am an individuated Spark of the Divine, a Wave in the Great Ocean of Creation, a representative of the Cosmic Consciousness. I am the driver of this human vehicle in the emotion-based Earth Plane experience.
     In these blogpposts I have gone so far as to assert that we, while in the Spirit World, very carefully plan not only the circumstances of our birth but all of the major life events and patterns that might unfold in this lifetime. I know. Several times I, Drew Fisher, have had the privilege of being present in the company of my team of councillors and helper souls; I have had my metaphysical suspicions and beliefs validated many, many times while living this life as Drew Fisher.
     The planning process for Earth School participation is similar to the process of preparing a play for the stage. The playwright gets together with some experienced writers, a directorial staff, and a cast of actors to introduce the story. You yourself have prepared a skeleton script with the help of the valued input of your creative team of advisors and fellow actors. Once everyone is happy and properly committed to the "play" and their roles within the play (and it fits into their own individual scripts) then you jump in and begin trying to realize your script. The variables of unforeseen and 'probable' events versus 'possible' lines of cause and effect make the Earth School experience more of an exercise in improvisational skill. This helps to account for the high degree of tension and surprise, adventure and excitement, the ups and downs of the human experience.
     The actual staging of the play is quite uncontrolled--filled with surprises and ad libs (which are due to what we call "free will")--artistic flourishes that might take the story a little off course--that might, in fact, cause major deviations from the story's original intentions. How well prepared you are--how practiced you are from previous experiences and the comfortable or familiar patterns you've used before (in other lifetimes)--all play important roles in your ability to "stick to the script."
     Most of us are far less prepared than we think we are. We are often overly optimistic or over-ambitious in planning our "play." It is in these cases that we find ourselves falling into patterns of Ego domination and/or emotional behaviors that are either familiar to us from previous incarnations or that are strongly modeled to us from within our family and societal/cultural surroundings. Regardless of how well we perform according to the original script, you can rest assured that there are always lessons galore to revel over and learn from.

Many of you have unknowingly allowed your family, society, innate curiosities, and/or inner logic to help you form mental constructs which deny the existence of a spiritual world. For many of you, these constructs have become recalcitrant, that is, you have become so attached to your belief systems as to resist and repel even the possibility that any new information could be worth considering. You question the reality of a spiritual self and dismiss the idea that there could be a spiritual agenda and cosmic plan behind the empirical appearances of the human and Earth experiences. For you I can only shrug my shoulders and ask, "So, why are you here (reading this blog)?"
     If you are drawn to topics like this one I would argue that you have some intuitive attraction to these topics, an innate curiosity. Your attraction to my words could be coming from an internal unsettledness (a so-called "Divine discontent") that is urging you to learn more, to explore, to test your self and your beliefs. It could be an anxiousness of insecurity that strives to feel more security (in such forms as new knowledge, new options, new stimuli).
     Your attraction could be coming from a defensive posture. The Ego/Personality hates change. It tries to remain comfortable where it is most familiar. This usually results in its defense of its personal opinions or beliefs against ideas or opinions coming from "outsiders." And yet we are often paradoxically attracted to those things that are most scary and unknown to us.
     Your attraction could also be the result of a combative neurological behavior pattern based on an addiction to adrenaline stimulation. (A lot of people become addicted to the adrenaline rush that comes with the "flight or fight" response of Autonomic Nervous System activity.)
     Insatiable intellectual curiosity is another possible reason you were drawn here. Or, synchronicity may have attracted this information to you (i.e. you were drawn to this information, this event in your life, by the natural flow and inclinations of your established psychological patterns).
     In any event, welcome! Be well come! I hope that you are able to find use of this information--whether as a test and then reconfirmation of your current beliefs and values or whether to help you become reacquainted with knowledge or wisdom that you already held inside you but were looking for help in order to bring to consciousness. You may remember this kind of occurrence from many instances of your life: instances in which you hear or read something that you have never heard or seen before but that you instantly recognize as being "right" or "truth" (or their opposites). Some people are more aware and sensitive to these kind of moments. If you have every heard of the educational psychology theories of multiple intelligences, you will know of one or more of the systems that recognize between three and eleven categories or forms of intelligence. Most of us have heard of the three learning styles that include "kinesthetic," "auditory" and "visual." Or we have heard of the implications or generalizations associated with people who are (supposedly) right brain or left-brain dominant. You probably know (or know of) people who are particularly developed in areas of imagination and intuition, practicality or logic, language or music, math or science, mechanical or spatial relations, physical or athletics, emotional or empathic, insight or mental capacity--and many others. Each of us has our particular strengths and gifts (as well as weaknesses). While we tend more to explore and develop the areas in which we are stronger or gifted, from a spiritual perspective it is often our Soul's desire to work on developing the weaker areas of our being--to that end of becoming more 'well-rounded' and, theoretically, better equipped to handle more situations (at different or "higher" levels of responsibility).
     Those of you who have followed these blogposts from the beginning know that Journeyman Paul has had a strong role in helping me, Drew Fisher, to try to travel pathways outside my comfort zone. Due to the familiarity of past life patterns and the accrued developmental strengths and weaknesses in my spiritual makeup, the most comfortable path I could have taken would have been within a monastic life or within a fairly safe and predictable social environment (which, one could argue, I did anyway by choosing to be an late 20th Century American). Most naturally, my daily focus would have been spending lots of time immersing myself into the pursuit and gathering of intellectual knowledge, Beauty, Love and Truth. The path of a scholar. And yet, somehow, I have, time and time again, made choices that are outside, even contrary to, my comfort zones. The most important choices I have made have felt quite risky, even scary. For example:  Living with people--living within society at large. Traveling. Teaching. Marrying and having children. Going into the healing arts. Writing and speaking for public consumption. All the while I find myself constantly retreating to the 'safety' of my solitary alone time, seeking to feed my lust for artistic and intellectual stimulation (especially, music and knowledge).
     Born into an affluent family in a very affluent society, I consciously chose to eschew the dominant mentality of accumulating and seeking power, wealth, property, and possessions. I have also consciously chosen not to give my power away to the scam that is "health" "insurance," the disease-is-big-business allopathic medical paradigm, the Demopulican political puppet show, the corporate media brainwashing game, the crowd-controlling and spirit-denying machinations of fear-based religions, and the pressures of seasonal sensational consumer/throw away culture. I have made many, many choices that run counter to the dominant paradigms of 20th/21st Century "civilized" culture. Why? Because none of them feels right. None of them feel honorable to the sanctity and special gift that is Life and the Life Spirit much less to human potential, to Mother Nature, to the spirit of abstracts. None of them honors, recognizes or even allows for the the sacred Divinity in all things. All of them seek to intentionally cloud humanity within a shroud of child-like fear and ignorance; all of the seek to intentionally enslave humankind within an endless maze of powerlessness and dependencies.
     It is my belief that we have all chosen the Earth incarnations that we currently occupy. My life experiences have provided me with more than ample proof of this belief. My day-to-day experiences add to and reinforce this knowledge. Therefore, let me say it again:
     We have chosen, all of us, to come to Earth at this particular time in order to test ourselves, in order to fight the upstream battle for mastery and Self-realization in the most turbulent and darkest of times (spiritually). Our solar system is traveling a 24,000 year circuitous journey around its binary center. With 10,500 years to go before "reuniting" with its own Pleiadian twin, the great Sol, supporter of all Earthly life, has only recently begun its return back toward its strongest, healthiest state. Near its twin, the Sun recharges itself as it is bathed and reenergized with the power of Love.
     The Earth is traveling along as a companion or child of the Sun. It has, therefore, just passed through a period in which it is farthest removed from the strongest effects of Light and Love. Spiritually, the Earth it has just passed through its darkest times, a period in which it has been most susceptible to disharmony and dis-ease, a period in which Ignorance and Fear have had their most opportune chances to sway our psyches. Consequently, the majority of us--Earth-dwellers that we are--will struggle with Fear and Ignorance throughout this and other Earth incarnations--which is fine! Fear and Ignorance are wonderful learning tools when participating in the Game Fields of the Great Illusions of Duality. Some of us will "pass our tests" and achieve a state of recognition, use and even mastery of the Grand Illusions--that is, achieve the full use of Spiritual Law while in the molasses pit of human experience. The term "enlightenment" is, after all, not only a recognition of a greater presence and flow of Light but also a lightening effect to spirit. Each time we recognize the heaviness of Ego-personality choices of struggle and conflict, pain and suffering, and then choose something else, something other than those heavy, emotion-based perspectives we are in fact lightening our load, casting off or choosing not to take on more burden or weight. And that's it! That is the whole point of taking a trip into the human form on the Earth School plane:  Learning to recognize the illusory nature of Maya, of the physical- material world, and to then choose Light, Love, Beauty, Truth, Joy, Spirit and The Divine over their alternatives.

Toril and Drew

Journeyman Paul is still working on gaining mastery over the four-dimensional, emotion-based human experience. He is, however, nearing the end stages. He has nearly gained mastery.
     As Monads approach the end of their use of the Earth School experience, they are offered the opportunity of incarnating with a favored 'soul mate' with whom they have shared many Earth Plane lifetimes. My experience is that this "favored soul mate" is, in fact, one's "split apart," one's "Twin Flame," your "other half." What is meant here is that there exists in the Illusory Realm of Duality another complementary being with whom you were "born" into this, the Realm of Material Possibilities. The story goes that each of us emerged from the Oneness of the Unified Divine Consciousness in a kind of yin-yang 'egg.' In this "egg" form we were one of two polarized halves which then split apart into two Monadic entities, each to 'travel' the illusory paths of devolution and evolution 'separately.' Though acting separately, the two Monadic 'twins' are forever drawn to each other--seeking reunion, if you will. Occasionally, the split aparts connect and work together. But it is only during the end stages of use of the Earth School experience that the Monads actually become conscious of this "cosmic birth" connection. It takes that mastery of Ego and the accompanying Spiritual awakening to be able to see and appreciate the re-connection with one's "split apart."
     Toril and Paul are two such 'twins.'
     The chance to live an Earth incarnation in companionship with one's 'other half' is like a blessed reward, a consolation for all the hard work one has put in in order to get here. This is not to say that this lifetime is going to be a breeze, or that the finding and choosing to live with one's 'Twin' will be all cake and ice cream. No way! This is the Earth School we're talking about! One of the most complicated, frustrating, and challenging game fronts we Spirits have ever devised! As you will see from the example of Paul and Toril's re-union there are always lessons to be learned and obstacles to be overcome during any path of Joy and Ease.
      For his 20th Century Earth incarnation (as Drew Fisher), Paul asked Toril to be a part of his 'support team.' At the same time, however, Toril was being encouraged to move on, to focus more of her energies into activities and dimensions beyond the human. She was being asked to devote her energies toward her next line of soul 'work.' Strong-willed to the core of her Spirit Essence, Toril chose to put up what we laughingly call a "cosmic tantrum" in order to make her beloved's wish happen.
     This incident gives me an anecdote with which to illustrate the fact that though each Monad's Council of Elders and Spirit Guides play important roles in trying to help the individual Monad see the probable consequences of their planning choices, the Monad is usually given final say. Thus, Toril got to come back to Earth one last time. But there were conditions placed upon her visit. Toril and I lovingly and humorously call this chapter of our cosmic dance, "The Cosmic Game of Hide and Seek"--which was previously described in Episode 14.
     While Paul and Toril were allowed to come to the same planet, at the same time, in the same country, Paul was given a head start. I, Drew Fisher, was born and raised in Michigan while Toril arrived in Rhode Island ten years later. Her family moved around a little:  from Connecticut to Maryland and then to Wisconsin. As adults both Toril and I had several careers and "practice" marriages before we finally met in 2004. Then we had to make very difficult, very courageous choices in order to be together; we both had to step out of easy, comfortable life patterns and then deviate from 'normal' societal expectations and conventions.
     Despite the turmoil and tumult our coming together may have caused (which we both know and understand to have been immensely valuable to everyone who watched), we both know, through and through, that the choice of being together is right. It is so natural and easy, so healing and empowering. It has also enabled each of our authentic selves to emerge and shine. Within the safety and strength of our together-love we have been allowed to discover and pursue each our own form of "sacred activism."
     "Sacred activism" is a term first popularized by author and religious scholar, Andrew Harvey. With this term Andrew intended to illuminate that issue or topic that so angers or excites a person that each time it comes up that person cannot help but want to get involved, to do something, to share his or her feelings and opinions.
     For Toril, her sacred activism appeared within the insanity and unstustainability of our world's current food systems. She serves her activism by educating people as to the effects and consequences of their daily food choices--how personal eating habits affect the health of individuals, society, the environment, and our planet.
    For me, my sacred activism started within the modern systems of mass education but eventually evolved into social systems that "civilized" humans have devised (and the masses have accepted) in order to create and perpetuate an oligarchic caste system of "masters and slaves." In offering information to others that might provoke expanded beliefs and alternate perspectives both Toril and I have hoped to effect awareness and change in these areas.

During our current human lifetimes, both Toril and I have had several past lives revealed to us in which we were together. It is our opinion and understanding that the revelation of these particular past lives have occurred because of the potent information that these lifetimes have to offer to our current lifetimes. It is quite likely and probable that there are many, many other lifetimes from which we could access and draw information but that the weight and import of these other experiences would not be as relevant to some of the current issues we are working on--that they would more likely serve as fog and clutter.
     Toril and I know that we had a lifetime together, albeit a brief one, in Ancient Egypt. In this lifetime Toril had been born into a royal blood line while I (Paul) was raised within a family and society of the scribe caste. Raised within the same palatial compound, we met and fell in love. Of course, our youthful love was forbidden by the caste system of that time. The indignant parents and family of Princess (Toril) fought particularly hard to prevent any contact between us. However, the power of our attraction was not to be denied (nor was the indomitable will of the Royal Princess). (Toril) and I managed to find ways to communicate, even occasionally to get together. Found out and separated, scolded and punished, we continued to choose to persist in the pursuit of our love affair--at first clandestinely and later overtly, defiantly, until we were once and for all separated:  (Toril)'s family had the interloper scribe beaten and banished to the Western Desert where I soon perished. Much to her family's chagrin and sadness, (Toril) chose to abandon her family and her royal comforts in hopes of finding her "true love." Alas! her efforts were all for naught as she failed to find any sign of her young partner and, eventually, ill-equipt to survive on her own and despondent at the loss of her lover, she, too, died, young and unfulfilled.
     The lifetime in the small fishing village on the Mediterranean island that you have already seen in Episode 3, "The Mediterranean Wise Man," was one in which the Paul and Toril were together for a long and relatively stable lifetime. However, the patriarchical religious orientation of their particular culture, augmented by the way their culture systemically conditioned of the male population through its male-only education system, effectively 'brainwashed' Paul's Ego Consciousness to such a degree that he led his entire life deep under the influences of the Illusions of Separation and Superiority. The worldview that his theocratic society constructed for him--and which he was never able to recognize in order to break its spell--caused him to go his entire lifetime without ever really seeing or feeling the gift of True Love that he had in his very presence in the form of his spiritually advanced and unconditionally loving wife. So clouded was Paul in the arrogance of his Ego constructs that he lived virtually alone and isolated within his own mind despite having a loving spouse, daughters and grand children. So, whereas in the Egyptian lifetime Toril and Paul were kept separate by the overt rules of social caste, on the Mediterranean island they were kept separated by the mental conditioning inherent in their community's religious traditions.
     Another lifetime that Toril and I became aware of was one in which we were childhood playmates in a small rural village in China. Set about two hundred years ago, Paul and his slightly younger friend, Toril, were practically inseparable. The two were gradually forced apart by Toril's family's upwardly mobile aspirations.
     Little Toril possessed the kind of natural beauty that was much favored among the landed, moneyed classes. As a possible means to better social and economic status, her fairly lowly family chose to begin subjecting their daughter to the custom of 'foot-binding.' This tactic was often used at that time to try to attract the attentions of the local aristocracy. If their daughter could win favor and perhaps even a marriage or courtesanship within the household of a local lord or state official, her family would benefit as well.
     Toril, however, proved to be so stubbornly strong-willed in her fight against this effort that her family went so far as to hire a professional foot-binder to come in and tend to the job.
     The foot-binder was an unusually tall man with quite a sadistic nature. He came to Toril's home with a coffin-like box within which he would confine his subjects while he performed his ministrations. Immobilizing the girls within the coffin was quite effective for him to better perform his torturous work at their feet without having to fight off the flailing arms and kicking legs of the usually raging victim.
     I remember sitting on my haunches outside of Toril's family's home, my back to the wall of the house, arms wrapped tightly around my knees, teeth biting into the skin of my own arms, all the while rocking back and forth, back and forth, as I listened helplessly to the screams and curses of my cherished friend coming from within the house.
     Once the binding was finished and the foot-binder gone, I remember sneaking into Toril's family home under the cover of dusk. Toril's family had gone out so the house was quite still. I found my exhausted friend curled up on a bed, half asleep, half in shock. Picking her up, I cradled her body, blankets and all, against my chest and carried her outside--determined to take her away from this house. Through the backyard, I carried her, across our beloved stream, stepping gingerly across the rocky stream bed. I did not stop or look back until I had reached the safety of a favorite hiding place of ours in the woods upstream a ways. There I placed Toril on the ground and proceeded to unbandage her broken, bloodied feet. Then I picked up her still limp body and carried her into the stream where I let the cool waters of the stream wash, bathe and soothe her tortured feet. I remember feeling the tension and pain leave Toril's body as she nestled up tightly against my chest.
     Later on I carried Toril back to our wooded hideout where we fell asleep among the bed of pine-needles with my arms wrapped protectively around my beloved friend.
     During the night we were found. We were forcibly separated and I was sent away to a distant monastery the very next day. We never saw each other again in that lifetime.

You can probably see the pattern here: Paul and Toril's mutual attraction leads to a continuous theme of courageous, strong-willed defiance in the face of often-insurmountable odds. Love is undeniable, indomitable. And yet when Toril first encountered Paul in this their 21st Century lifetimes--when her eyes first looked into mine--she knew instantaneously that this was he:  this was the one. The one she came back to Earth for. The one she had been searching for. The one she had denied the tempting beckon of premature death for. And still she waited for months and then years before approaching him with her Truth. You see, Toril knew in her Heart of hearts that, now that she had found him, she could finally rest. She saw that her true love was happy--that he was alive and happy--and this alone was enough. As is the case with all truly unconditional love, seeing his happiness was all that she truly cared about. Under the gaze of true Unconditional Love, his happiness was enough to bring her happiness. And Peace.
     However, there came a day that she could see that my happy, stress-free life was changing. My usual carefree, happy demeanor was showing signs of fatigue and failure. That's when Toril knew it was time to step in. At first the role she chose was simply that of friend. In this new friendship, I was able to find a great deal of revitalization, healing and inspiration. Toril's wisdom, words and example served as a veritable spiritual 'bath.' I felt as if my True Self were being awakened, as if I was finally becoming open to the free flow of Spirit, as if the mud and tar that had caked my Soul for so long, limiting and debilitating it, was being washed away.
     You see, that is the effect Toril has on almost everyone. The infectious strength of love and support that emanates from Toril has the uncanny effect of bringing out "bigger" versions of those with whom she comes in contact. Accordingly, I found new impulses, new courage, new life coursing through my veins--thanks to the ministrations of my friend, my spiritual mentor--whom I liked to call my "butt-kicker."

    Though Toril and I each know of several lives we have led without the other's company, we feel certain that we have passed many lives on the planet together. We believe that the past lives and alternate forms that have been revealed to us in this, our current lifetimes, have been revealed to us because of their particular relevance to the lessons we are currently working on. As you can see, love, courage, will power, perseverance and fortitude have been themes that we have been developing throughout other lifetimes and which we have carried forward into our present ones.
    Our Monadic Selves fought hard to be together, just as they have fought hard to achieve their individual progress. We both believe that they had no choice: that the magnetism of Love between them was far too powerful to overcome--that it would be laughable to do so. Our Monads were meant to be together again, to share their love and support, to celebrate reunification. They also recognize that the individual entities are both so much stronger, so much more powerful and engaged in Life, Love, and evolution because of the loving support they have coming from each other. Thus, togetherness just makes so much sense. But what it really comes down to is the fact that, like Toril and I, our Monadic Selves really enjoy 'holding hands' with each other.
     It is my hope that each of you, my readers, are able to find a partner whose hand-holding empowers you to ever expanding Truths, to ever-expanding versions of Who You Are, to your Love Supreme.


  

Choices, Part 2

I believe that every person who has chosen to incarnate in human form "on" the planet Earth has the same right to leave--on his or her terms, at any time that he or she deems appropriate. Deaths happen every day and every death causes a ripple of effects within that person's community of loved ones no matter what the circumstances of death, no matter the size of the community, no matter what the ages of those involved. I believe that some Monads and their loving Spiritual counselors plan for an incarnated Soul to have an early exit for the expressed purpose of the gift of 'trials and tribulations,' i.e. pain and suffering, that the experience might offer his or her Earth community. An abortion, a murder, a death in war, a tragic athletic, motor vehicle, scuba diving, or climbing accident can all reveal emotions, responses and reactions from within the being of observers and loved ones which can then offer opportunities for great advancements in self-awareness, learning and growth.
     When my niece was diagnosed with Leukemia at age four, I looked into that happy, smiling girl's eyes and new that this event had nothing to do with her own health or mortality. Instead, I knew  (through her eyes her Soul conveyed to me) that her cancer was an event that was offered as a rather abrasive 'wake up call' to all of her family members and friends (myself included). The lessons of returning our focus to family and to being more present in the Here and Now were part of what the "gift" of her cancer presented to us. In this way I believe that my niece offered up her human body as a "sacrifice" for the benefit of spiritual "healing" and growth of those around her--especially for her parents. Her life was never really threatened. She new it. I new it. The form of leukemia she contracted has one of the ones that had the most successful and proven cure rate of all cancers on the planet. Even if she were to have had to abandon her human body, her four-dimensional Earth vehicle, she would have been fine--she would be happy back in the Spirit World, busy planning other adventures on her way to increasing Self-awareness and forward-moving Self-improvement--and to helping others along the same path. What a joyful, sacred act of unconditional Love that was! (Thank you, Ali!)
     As circumstances get tough in the upcoming Collapse and Near-Term Human Extinction, there may come a time in which individuals or loved ones might make the choice to "give up," to extinguish their lives, to abandon their 'vehicle.' Those people caught up in identifying with social or religious beliefs and mores or who are succumbing to giving their power away to the pressures of "outside forces" will find it difficult to allow for these thoughts or considerations--for themselves or for others. We have allowed "suicide" to accrue such a heavy, negative connotation. The agencies of mass control (religions and governments) are constantly trying to convince us that it is a "bad," "evil," "sinful," "unforgivable," or "eternally damning" choice. They have constructed severe penalties in the effort to induce our fear-based avoidance of this choice.
     I am here to remind you, though, that the choice of what you choose to do to or with your body is yours and yours alone. Likewise, the choice of who or what beliefs, groups, labels, or values you wish to attach your Egos to is always yours and yours alone--and no one way is right or wrong, better or worse. I just wish for others to remember that they have the power to let go of that which they cannot (or should not?) control (e.g. others) and that they can consider and, hopefully, learn to respect and allow for alternative perspectives if they can't accept and/or empathize with others. This will be difficult for the many souls on the planet at this time who have become quite immersed in the Illusion of Separation and who have become attached to the habit of giving their power away to other "experts" and "authorities."
     I'd like to offer another reminder to all my readers:  In the eyes of God, in the eyes of our True Essence, our Divine Nature, we are all equal, all one, all from and of the same exact 'substance,' the same exact Ocean of Cosmic Consciousness. The ability to recognize this and to then think and act from this knowledge is so liberating and so powerful. To be able to watch the events unfolding around you with detachment and even amusement will allow you a much easier transition from Earth-based "reality" to other versions (of "reality"). To be able to observe everything from the understanding that it is all a game, it has all been co-created for your experiential gain and that you have infinite choices available to you in every moment is so liberating. You can, of course, still choose at any moment how deeply you wish to invest your energies into the chaos and mayhem occurring around you--especially if you think you can enjoy the Beauty and Love being expressed in your actions and involvement. But, then, you are equally welcome to remain divested, uninvolved. There is no right or wrong. If you have been fortunate enough to recognize some of the issues and goals your Spiritual Community had planned for your current lifetime, then you can even be more discerning as to the level and instances of involvement in the illusory events roiling around you.
     While there are support groups and informational resources on the side of free choice, even these seem very focused and concerned with the fear-inducing legal and religious "restrictions" that humans have created in the effort to thwart individual end of life free choice. Threats of eternity spent in "Hell" or "Purgatory," ostracization from social and religious groups, denial of insurance benefits to family and loved ones, and the layers and levels of social and economic fallout to which loved ones can be subjected from our suicide all guilt us into discounting the choice to end our lives on our own terms.
     The spiritual perspective on making the choice to end one's own life on one's own terms is one of non judgment and acceptance. There is no right or wrong, there is no good or bad, there is no better or worse--except to the extent that we choose to give power to these value-based assignations. The emotion-laden systems we have created on Earth can be challenging to disengage or detach from in the Spirit World. Detachment is easier if we have practiced or mastered it while in the human form. The energy of the Ego can be strong enough that it can survive and cloud our perception long after we leave our human bodies. The "purgatory" of attachment to Ego-based constructs is very real, as explained in podcast Episode 9: "Limbo." The more we achieve in Self-awareness and Self-realization while in the human form is a definite asset in a speedy "return" to the freedoms and perspectives of the Spirit World.
     The decision to use the four-dimensional emotion-based Earth School human experience is but another choice. One can always change one's mind. When the ultimate goal (to which we will all succeed in achieving) is remembrance of and reunion with our Unified Oneness in the God-ness that initiated the dualistic worlds of Creation, very little power or importance need be given any "thing" that we conceive or create. At the same time, every little "thing" that we conceive, create, or give power to is just as sacred a vial or repository of a Divine Spark of the Unified Oneness and can, therefore, be given as much love, respect, attention, or power that one might choose. There is no right or wrong, there is no good or bad, there is no better or worse. There is choice. As we continue to choose to use the Illusions of Duality and Creation there is always an infinity of choices. Infinite choice.

Choices

How do you define "life"? Do you define life as the birth to death timeline in human, physical form? Will animals and computers and other forms with "intelligence" qualify under your definition? Do rocks, cells, molecules, subatomic particles, stars and universes qualify? Do souls qualify?
     Do you believe in the existence of a soul? If so, how do you choose to define the term "soul"? Does a soul have life (and form?) beyond the confines of the human timeline?
     If you believe in the concept of a soul, does your definition allow for the soul to have rights and choices outside of the human experience? Is your version of the soul above, separate, or different from your human form? Does it qualify as a "living, conscious, sentient, choice-making being"? Or is it a robot or slave to other beings and or forces? Does it have "free will"?
     If a human being achieves connection and communication with its soul--or with information from

I believe that the human experience and the vehicle we choose to use while on the Earth Plane are created with specific goals and intentions, that the human experience serves as a tool for the gathering of experiences and the achievement of predesigned goals. I also believe that the human experience can be extremely frustrating. And tiring. Here I am speaking particularly of the severe confines and limitations that a Spiritual being agrees to enslave oneself to in order to participate in the Earth School human experience. Though we are given means to consciously remember and re-member our Spiritual Source while in the human form, we are usually quite preoccupied with the plethora of information, responses, and choices bombarding us from the "world" around us. In fact, we are quite distracted from being able to give much time, attention or focus to bringing Spirit and spiritual information into our human consciousnesses.

I have had the privilege of having access and, apparently, some innate familiarity with the presence and "voice" of my Life-giving Source. This has caused me to pursue with increasing activity and excitement an expanding knowledge of, familiarity with, and sometimes communion with fragments of my Monadic oversoul. As I've done so, I've become increasingly familiar with the illusory nature of the Earth School "reality" that we, ourselves created for these excursions and adventures into form and independent consciousness. I have not (yet) become a master of manipulating the "reality" and "forms" of the four-dimensional world in which humans inhabit. I am not, in fact, very interested or curious with such a pursuit--though I believe it to be quite viable and worthy of pursuit. I am just not interested in it. The accomplishments of my 56 years--both "actual" and imagined--are quite adequate and satisfactory for me.

I have also had the decided privilege and advantage of being able to recognize more and more (nearly 100% of my waking mind) the Beauty, Truth, Love, and Joy in each and every moment, each and every vision, each and every experience that I experience through the filter of this Drew Fisher human consciousness. I am less apt to assign things to compartments or labels according to dualistic definitions or categories, that is, I no  longer "buy into" the human tendency to categorize things into polemics like good and evil, black and white, here and there, us and them, beautiful and ugly, better or worse. Everything just is. It's all just information. Information for us to use (or not) if we choose, to value (or not) if we choose, to give energy and attention to (or not) if we choose.

Many humans before and after me will have chosen to use this state of awareness to develop a manipulative command of the space time "reality," of the information coming to and through them. I feel no such compulsion. I find myself bored with the human experience. I find myself discontent with the "childish games" that humans have co-created and chosen to participate in for their supposed "personal evolution." I am finding little value or meaning in the games, in the "work" that my soul can accomplish while in this form, while playing these boring, childish games.

I feel ready--excited--for the next adventure. For new challenges, new goals, new experiences and, hopefully, new lessons. I have accomplished many things in this incarnation that I have been shown have earned me "advancement," i.e expanded awareness, more Divine Perspective. I have awakened to my right and ability to choose for myself, to be and become whomever I wish to be or become. I have awakened to the fact of my Divine Origins, my True Self, as well as to the "game" that is the Earth School experience and to the "rules" we co-created in order to "play" within that game.

Well, I'm tired of the game, tired of the rules. The purpose of the game seems pointless. Unless I'm missing something.

I have created challenging, uplifting, mind-expanding experiences and art for others. I have partnered with and through various forms of love including having learned the most difficult form of love of all: tough love. I have fathered and raised children to become responsible, self-determining adults. I have been immensely fortunate to have been found, awakened, and companioned by my Other, my Twin, my Split-Apart, my Teacher, my Eternal Love. I have come to understand, appreciate and recognize the equality of all life--be it ant, mountain, lepton, fifth-dimensional being, fictional character, or Gaia, Earth Mother to us all. Most importantly, I have come to understand and love The Plan: that adventure into the illusions of Form and Separation that We of The Universal Consciousness have set in motion through Creation.

The game that we've chosen to participate in, that we've committed to, as I see it, is to figure out that you are in a game, that you are really a Spark of the Infinite Divine, that the rules and "realities" we give power to are but illusions, are but fabrications we created in order to test ourselves--to make the process of Self-discovery quite challenging. But now that I know all this, I'm bored. I am not enjoying the game. I am, in turns, saddened, angered, amused, and overjoyed at the experiences available to us in the human form. But, alas! It's all just illusion! It's all just, to me, a waste of time. What's the point (now)? My body is not as enjoyable to be in now that I know how limiting and now that I understand and feel its insidious demise. My mind feels as if I have accomplished the tasks, hurdled the hurdles, even mastered the heretofore "failed" (for there is no such thing as "failure") skills that I came "here" (for "here" is merely an illusory "place" that we, Ourselves have created) to master.

So, I am not sure what to do with my self. I am not very excited to play out this game of voluntary enslavement, of perpetual war on self-created and self-perpetuated "enemies" (like neighbors, other species, Mother Nature, our "decaying/dying" bodies, Time, even our "loved" ones). I no longer value or enjoy play-actiing "duality matters." I no longer see the point. Why remain a slave, I ask myself,  when I no longer value or find meaning in enslavement--and I know a way out? Why remain entrenched in multi-front warfare when I no longer value the point of any war--and I know a way out? Why play the game of ever-conditional love when I feel unconditional love for all of Creation--and I know a way out? Why continue to stay in the game that I now see for the pointlessness that it represents when I know a way out? Why endorse the inanities and hypocrisies of game playing by staying in the game when I can leave and therein show my rejection of and boredom for the game.

Perhaps my last and most important purpose within the "game" of the Earth School is to try to raise consciousness among my species as to the viability and value of the choice of leaving the game when and if you choose to leave the game.  (How aggravating that will be to the consumer-capitalist society we have spawned and become addicted to!)

Times are tough. Societal and species collapse is underway. People are going to want and need an alternative to staying on and trying to eek out a subsistence survivalist living under totally adverse and probably overtly oppressive conditions. The early followers of the legend and lessons of Jesus of Nazareth were of a mind that the apocalypse was going to happen soon--in their lifetime--and, so prepared with very spiritually-focused lifestyles, with very little expectation of a future for the species. Martyrdom and suicide were quite common as the value placed on human life, human form, feeding the flesh, was quite diminished, even negated. Metaphorically, they were not wrong. The human form only deserves as much value and meaning placed upon it as you are want or willing to do. The choice of how or even whether or not to sustain and maintain human life is as viable and constant a choice as any other. If we can wield this power upon others (murder, capital punishment, the ethics and practices of the medical profession, war) or upon ourselves (enlistment into the armed forces, joining subversive organizations, participation in "extreme" sports), then why not in the very moment-to-moment choice to remain present and committed to the Earth School experience?

I believe that I am a Spiritual Being who is merely using the very limiting and constricting sentient human bodymind. The human bodymind is very limiting for the Spirit. I have contracted to submit my Self to the brainwashing/numbing four-dimensional field of the Earth School in order to try to accomplish more elevated/expanded ways of dealing with a set of predesigned tasks, tests and obstacles all with the goal of eventually working my way back to the expanded form of consciousness that was mine before (and when) I chose to become a participant in the Illusory Worlds of Separation and Duality, of Form and Creation--which I helped to create while in that initial form of the Formless One Consciousness. A circuitous journey, to be sure. One that is most exciting for the veiled passages in which seemingly unforeseeable informations and events surprise and challenge us--challenge us to "think on our feet" to hopefully, rise above the heavier, denser patterns of Fear-based choice making. We are here to use the Illusions of Creation as we wish, as we see fit, but then to not use them if we also see fit. This is always an equally viable choice.

I am presently in a state of underwhelm. The game, the Illusions, are no longer fun and exciting for me to play. For me, the purpose for their existence (illusory as it is) has lost its value. We can choose to learn through Suffering or we can choose to learn through Joy. (Or both.) I am finding no fun, no entertainment, no meaning or usefulness in choosing either. I like Joy. I guess I prefer Joy--though I do recognize and honor the value and purpose in which suffering is attracted to and used in a person's life. But right now, I feel neither. I am tired of duality, of opposites, of categorizing, of blaming and warring and acting as if things here (or there) "matter." They don't! They never have and they never will!  It's all an illusion! That we created! For our entertainment! (As a cure for our boredom?! That would be ironic:  to find oneself bored with one of the games that we, Ourselves created in order to try to cure our boredom!)

Anyway. The writer of these words finds himself trapped within the confines of this aging human body, trapped within a world of war-crazed, fear-sodden, God-ignorant children. The Illusions that served me in my initial survival and subsequent development and awakenings (expansions) now seem so childlike, so "below" me. I hate casting aspersions of superiority and inferiority (there's that duality illusion again!) as I KNOW that everyone is me, that there is no right or wrong way, no right or wrong path, that everyone is going to get THERE (back where We came from). But I also know that there are many many games one can choose for one's lessons and experiences. This one (the game of the "21st Century" human Earth School experience) no longer serves or interests me. I find myself craving peace, stillness and silence; searching hypervigilently for the all-pervasive unity, oneness, and harmony of my Divine Source.

Yeah, I guess I can do it here. (Or not.) The choice is mine and mine alone--as choice is yours, at every moment of every day, and your choices are yours and yours alone! (though we are never alone--are always alone--al[l] one.)


I am distracted by the constant voice or beacon of "Divine Discontent," a voice or feeling that keeps me wondering, "What's next?"--that finds little meaning in the acts and actions of day-to-day, moment-to-moment human Earth living.  

Mother Earth is claiming "Eminent Domain"

I love the entertainment value of human hubris, the arrogance of patriarchical "taker" mentality, the subtle humor of the Illusion of Separation!

Male-dominated geopolitical minds came up with the eminently self-serving concept of "eminent domain" in which a government, business, corporation, wealthy landowner, or all-around asshole can usurp a piece of property under the legally supported claim that "the public need" for use of that particular piece of property is greater than that of any other "private" group or individual. The truth of this claim is ever debatable and most certainly dependent on the variable subjective points-of-view that one can use to approach the concept of "need" and "greater good." In a consume and throw-away capitalist culture, under the power or control of an oligarchic economy of greed, this may be a dominating version of the 'truth.' From the perspective of ecological respect for the bio-unity of all things on this biosphere we call Earth, the concept of property and ownership and development and unlimited, infinite resources and single-species dominance is far from the truth.
     From the Spiritual perspective, the male-dominated 'ownership' game is, as you might already have guessed, just a game. No one can own or possess another person or thing except insofar as he can exert enough force and/or fear in order to control that person or thing.

About ten thousand years ago the male of the human species used his physical strength to usurp control of societal rules and has proceeded to dominate ever since. Unfortunately, power, greed, and fear of losing control have caused him to tread a rather short-sighted and myopic course for his species--one that has been disastrous for his planetary companion species and one that has even irritated his host Mother to such an extent that She has had to initiated measures of self-protection that are likely to not only eliminate her parasitic intruder (us) but most other benign and beneficial flora and fauna as well. The healing process for Mother Earth will likely take thousands of years--which is but a few days in the timeline of her already four billion year old life span. In the meantime, we Spirits who have enjoyed the benefit of using Earth and the Human species as hosts and means to our educational experiences will have to use alternative "schools" and "vehicles"--or co-create new ones--for our four-dimensional emotion-based experiential learning adventures. So be it. It has happened before. It will probably happen again. (The emotional realms are dark and murky; it is easy to get lost, misguided or forgetful of our Divine nature while negotiating them.)

The news becomes more incontrovertible with each passing day:  The surface of planet Earth is becoming inhospitable for the support and sustenance of human life. The seas are becoming too warm and too acidic to support life and are, in fact, warming to such a degree as to be loosening billions of tonnes of toxic substances that had been previously trapped in a frozen state by the permafrosts in the arctic tundras and by the frozen seabeds beneath the polar icecaps.
      Scientists are predicting that human life will be extinct in the Northern Hemisphere by 2040 and by 2080 for those living in the Southern Hemisphere. How long you choose to resist the truth of this information, how long and how hard you choose to fight to prolong your time on the planet is really immaterial to me. We are all going to die. What I am more interested in is how you will react and how well will you be able to deal with the immanence, the finality, the unavoidability of the premature demise and death of your human self.
     Will you fight? Will you kill to protect your self, your property, your loved ones, your beliefs and values and, if so, why? To what end or purpose will such fight serve? (Remember:  There is no wrong or right answer, no right or wrong action; all thoughts and actions have consequences from which you, and others, can learn and grow.) Will you hold out for as long as possible despite the insidious attrition of the human population around the globe? To what ends will you go in order to feed your self and your loved ones? Will you kill for food? Will you eat rotten food? Will you eat the flesh of other human beings? Will you have the courage to plan and decide when to choose your own death, on your terms, in your own way? Will you be acting from the power of fear, anger, denial, and attachment--adhering to the Illusion of Separation till the "bitter end"? Or will you be mindful of your choices and their consequences, taking responsibility for your choices, acting in full awareness of the 'game' in which you have chosen to participate?

Our species is facing extinction. It is my opinion that this fact is the nemesis of our hubris:  We who have caused so many extinctions now get to experience it for our selves, our own extinction. Maybe we'll learn something along the way. Like some humility. And empathy. Maybe we'll go down kicking and screaming, playing the blame game, ever the victim, eternally unwilling to accept self-responsibility.
     I am excited. To watch. The fact that more souls have decided to be present for these "End of Days" than have ever been present on Earth before surely says something about how exciting, how loaded are the lessons available to a soul invested in a 21st Century human bodymind. The question remains:  How will you react or behave? What will you learn from watching and participating in the extinction of the human species?